If you’ve spent any length of time with me over the past few months you already knew. It’s been a very complicated decision that I’ve given a lot of thought. It wasn’t easy.
I had an amazing boss, great pay, benefits, downtown office with snacks (precovid). The ideal dream job, I saw for myself in San Francisco. Living the tech life I had envisioned for so long.
It wasn’t given to me. It was a struggle and fight to get to this point. I sacrificed a lot, spending so much time and money to improve my skills and experience needed to be marketable. It took a while, and a few times I didn’t think I was ever going to make it in the bay area. Eventually, I brought myself up to a level where I was capable of working with some of the most brilliant minds I’ve ever encountered.
For now, I’m not going to be pursuing a new job in IT.
I’m sure I’ll work in some way with technology as I have large skill set there, but I’m not looking to find a 9 to 5 employer anytime soon.
I’ve saved enough to backpack through Central, South America, and eventually Asia, for a little while. I’m planning to live frugally while I manage some online business projects. If I’m not stupid with money I should have enough funds and time to really discover myself. Free from distractions.
For most of my career it felt like the only thing that was important was how much can I learn, earn, and own. Over the past few years, I’ve found I’m way more interested in how much I can connect, save, reduce, and create. Not just creating things but also experiences. Discovering ways to capture those moments that are impactful are relatable to the human experience. The moments where life feels real.
I want travel, and to share the magic I see in the world. Living a life where adventure is constantly finding me. Trusting the universe to deliver musings worthy of sharing and capable of making the connections I desire.
I’m learning more about my planet than I’d ever imagine. Being a citizen of this world. One who refuses to be restricted to the borders, language, politics, cultures, and dogmas I was born into. The variety of this life is indefinite, once you think you know anything you realize you know nothing. It’s important to stay humble as there are plenty of awkward lessons to absorb.
I can’t help but feel guilt for surrendering the opportunity I’ve had with this job for the past 3.5 years. I’m honored to have been a part of such a great family and culture. Yet the ego still remembers all the pain, doubt, and uncertainty I committed to get here. In way, it’s offended I would consider forfeiting those efforts.
I’m getting over this doubt slowly. In fact, I’m pretty excited to start my new life. Focusing on those things where I get the greatest reward for the least amount of energy committed.
I still don’t have all the answers or know really how well this experience will go. But I think that’s the point.
